Jinz Moss To Dad (feat. Laura K-Waters)
Today I turned 15 and dad you never called
Something seems a miss to me
This shit ain't such a mystery the writing's on the wall
F..ck giving a reason, you're having trouble breathing
You struggle through the seasons
You taught me f..cking everything and now you're f..cking leaving
Man I can't believe it
It was harder to break that it was for us to hear
You see the tears in my eyes I'm like daddy pull me near
You're like "Jinz it's alright"
But I'm struck by the fear
You told me "Don't worry son imma make it to your 16th
I'm taking all the medicine the doctors have to give me
I wish we had more time please will you forgive me"
You told me hold tight son come and live with me
So I preyed for the best
Shifted from the east all the way to the west
There's a plague in your chest
Dad I have to look after you
I'll see you through the pain until the day that your departure's due
Hook
Laura K Waters
Winds of change, chill of the rain
Tomorrow the storm is at its end
Winds of change, chill of the rain
I'll walk through its tears once again
I moved in to your house, we'd just sit on the couch
Blaze away the weed, gazing at the wonder years daily on repeat
That shit was so comfortable the fatalist disease, didn't even exist
Them moments were bliss, a total abyss, it's like we opened a glitch
But it's all coming crashing you're looking f..cking haggard now
You've aged ten years and it's only been 8 months
Staring at your face like look what the pain's done
I feel every breath that you take with your strained lungs
I'm sweeping up your hair off the floor as it's falling out
The doctor says the chemotherapy is gonna sort you out
But all I see is regression
I'm falling deeper and deeper in to a state of depression
I go from dealer to dealer I must deprave the aggression
Weed pills cocaine, anything to stay sane
Maybe it delays pain, maybe if I take enough we could go the same way
F..ck that stay strong weakness is the worst trait
Think of what he did for you he made it to your birthday
Dying slow to live for you, I'm hurting in the worst way
Hook
Sods law hard night I struggled with drugs
Woke up half cut cause nothings enough
9 missed calls, 4 messages, 1 text
Call back shit man I know what's to come next
Dee answers the phone but she ain't even said it
All I hear is the agony she's f..cking hysteric
Come to the hospital as quick as you can
She paused for a second said "I'll get you a cab"
She's waiting at the double doors, I'm running through the f..cking ward
My heart just hit the f..cking floor, I've never felt so f..cking raw
And just at that moment when I get to his bed
The doctor stops me puts his hand on my chest
Tells me due to the drugs he might be kind of a mess
I shoved him out the way clutched my dad by the hand
Looked him dead in the eye and said "Do you know who I am?!"
He didn't recognize his own son
His hearts still beating but I know that his soul's gone
He died a minute later to the sound of the dead line
I kissed him on the head and said..
"I'll see you in the next life"
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