Soul Whirling Somewhere Strength Is My Weakness
if, when all i have left to do, is to force myself to
hate you to get over you... if, when all i have left, is
to become callous to every feeling i have about you to
get over you... then i don't want to live, because i can
never hate you. no matter how bad you hurt me, i will
never hate you. but, if i live, then so does my love for
you. and that creates a sadness that makes my heart and
my life unlivable. i don't want to become cold again,
just so i can get over you. i did that before and i
nearly lost myself. i nearly lost myself. if, when
everything falls away and all i have left is to force
myself to hate you to get over you, even then i still
won't, though living like this is unbearable. then i
guess i can't live anymore, because i could never hate
you. i will never hate you. i'll always love you.
