Perry Maysun A Poem By Me
[Intro]
Hello
I, uh
Go by the name of Perry Maysun, and
I, I-, I just like to speak my truth in the music, you know?
And, this is a poem by me, I-
I appreciate everybody for coming out
Even if it's just one person listening
Thank you for showing love
Yeah
[Verse]
Suppressed my love at what cost?
A whole bunch of mental illness and the trust gone
I'm good at masking, but my heart not made of Teflon
Mat' of fact, I don't even got a vest on!
Step on my face and tell me I'm not great
'Cause that's the only reason I'm still doing it
'Cause you doubt mе, but without me, then therе wouldn't be you
I would do anything for peace of mind, I'd give up my shoes
And walk forever in the oceans that will always be blue
Self isolation inflicted by fear and the truth
That I could be more than I thought, but I been trapped in a soup
I'm but a Karen in the mix of just involving into
A greater episode compiled into the season
You call 'em a year here, I call it I don't believe it
They have just gone and gone and gone, you can't STOP 'em!
I call this illusion of an option
I call this "I'm being vague and gotta stop it"
I call this "Let me empty my f..cking pockets and take every damn skeleton up out my closet!"
I was with that boy once and don't regret it, said it
I was with that girl once, and started to get it
I don't wanna do no more repressing for my billion seconds
Get it?
I know you feel me
And we all struggling with that thing called "The Real Me"!
What's realness?
Feel me?
I had just broke when I was almost done healing!
Eyelids goddamn glued to the ceiling!
I can't sleep, told 'em let me pop a pilly, NO!
Can't go back like that
Can't be the same that you was in the last, check it
Just another ghost falling to a dirty beverage
Or another user buying twenty-thousand seconds!
Five hours
Gives me the power after I devour anything I need!
Capsules, alcohol and weed!
Maybe some pornography!
Please don't judge me
Uh
'Cause I am just a man in his vices!
While my other personalities tighten, a vise grip!
I been doing better, someone guide me to a crisis!
'Cause I been self destructive for my whole damn life, bitch!
[Outro]
My whole damn life
I been self destructive for my whole damn life
Thank you, thank you, thank you
