Mary Magdalan Nasty (feat. Steven Fischer)
All i felt was the rush
and my legs turned to mush
lost all my power to reason with my gut
lying on my back on this rosary i clutch frozen in the moment and i think i'm really f..cked
tonight im gonna die
but i can see the sun come up
i'm so f..ckin high i feel it running through my blood
collapsing my lungs all this hate to which i've clung
i'm deaf and i'm dumb, what the f..ck have i done?
hallucinating hold my hand i can't catch my breath
and help me, i've got pains in my chest
paranoia's agitating cardiac arrest
a hypochondriac whos emulating visions of her death
i could have an aneurysm vessel bursting in my head
half-dead like momma
did i see her lying in the bed?
can she see me lying naked on the floor?
praying to the lord
cause i don’t wanna live no more
give me a reason to live
cause i wanna die
why won't you forgive?
look what you've done to me
my head's in a sieve, but i feel alive
look what i did, i'm so wasted
envision my oblivion
saliva hangin on my chin
another night of partyin
with vomit on my cardigan
druggin, clubbin, f..ckin up in public
cookin up my demon in my betty crooker oven
suck it, base it, dragons chase it i'm nameless and faceless
i'm so wasted
head is heavy, eyes are rolling
feeling like my skin is boiling
puking in a dirty toilet
i can't control it
help me, let me out
or imma die tonight in some f..ckin strangers house
teeth and tongue are numb with all my might
i try to shout, no matter what i do
no words are coming out
(scream)
mind is snapped my relapse poisoned from rejection
and i'm about to f..cking crack
fade to black
as this euphoria enslaves me
lord take me back
why won't you come and save me?
give me a reason to live
cause i wanna die
why won't you forgive?
look what you've done to me
my head's in a sieve, but i feel alive
look what i did, i'm so wasted
