Mary Magdalan Wasted
All i felt was the rush….and my legs turned to mush…
lost all my power to reason with my gut….lying on my
back on this rosary i clutch frozen in the moment and i
think im really f..cked……tonight im gonna die…..but i
can see the sun come up…..im so f..ckin high i feel it
running thru my blood…collapsing my lungs all this hate
to which i’ve clung…..im deaf and im dumb what the f..ck
have i done…..
hallucinating hold my hand i cant catch my breath…..and
help me i’ve got pains in my chest…..paranoia’s
agitating cardiac arrest…
a hypochondriac whos emulating visions of her death….i
could have an aneurysm vessel bursting in my head half-
dead like momma did i see her lying in the bed….can she
see me lying naked on the floor…..praying to the lord
cause i don’t wanna live no more…
give me a reason to live cause i wanna die why wont you
forgive look what you done to me…..my heads in a sieve
but i feel alive look what i did im so wasted…..
envision my oblivion saliva hangin on my chin another
night of partyin with vomit on my cardigan druggin
clubbin f..ckin up in public…..cookin up my demon in my
betty crooker oven suck it base it dragons chase it im
nameless and faceless….im so wasted...head is heavy
eyes are rolling feeling like my skin is boiling puking
in a dirty toilet
spasming i cant control it….help me let me out…
or imma die tonight in some f..ckin strangers house……
teeth and tongue are numb with all my might
i try to shout no matter what i do no words are coming
out……(scream) mind is snapped my relapse poisoned from
rejection and im about to f..cking crack…..fade to black
…as this euphoria enslaves me….lord take me back....why
wont you come and save me……
give me a reason to live cause i wanna die why wont you
forgive look what you done to me…..my heads in a sieve
but i feel alive look what i did im so wasted…