Jaytekz Suicidal Heaven
[Verse 1]
Could feel your presence, swear to god I can feel your presence
"I don't know what you want from me or why the f..ck you think I'm one of your possessions!"
Constantly I'm stressing, I ain't been to sleep in f..cking days
Every time I close my f..cking eyes I can see my life going up in flames
People said I changed, tell me something I don't know
Like, tell me why I'm so suicidal?
Wanna blast a rifle through my f..cking skull
The Devil wants my soul
I can feel him tearing through my skin
I can hear him breathing down my neck
And every sunrise is growing dim
I said, "It's growing dim"
All this darkness I hold within
I've grown heartless and filled with sins
The Devil's conscious, that's where I've been
He held me hostage and I can't escape
I'm out of options and I'm losing faith
He's always watching every move I make
I proceed with caution every f..cking day
It's a f..cking plague, I can feel my heart slowly break
Torn apart and my soul's decade
Holding on but won't be okay. (x2)
Hope is gone, I'm no longer safe
Forgive me God, for all of my mistakes
[Verse 2]
I can feel your presence, swear to god I can feel your presence
"I don't know what you want from me or why the f..ck you think I'm one of your obsessions!"
Stuck In depression
Going through Hell while I seek for Heaven
Won't prevail, I can feel the tension
Skin is pale, dying every second
F..ck.. tell my family I apologise
I knew I should have been hospitalized
I tried to warn them like a thousand times, enough..
I can no longer bear this misery
Please wake me up from this bitter dream
Someone please respond to my hidden screams please..
I don't know what to f..cking do
All these nightmares are coming true
All that I feel is cut and bruised
How can I heal while being abused?
How can I heal while being misused?
Someone kill me and cut me loose
Tie my head inside a f..cking noose. (x2)
I've been dead this is nothing new
I'm possessed with corrupted views
Nothing left for me to f..cking lose, nothing left for me to f..cking gain
Tired of walking in my f..cking shoes
Tired of living my whole life in vain
