I Made You Myself Sad Consolation
This day-to-day
It's passing
It's blending
And everything I love is put away
Come back, my faith
Did you forget that I could shout?
Have you seen what I've become?
I am cursing at you now
Nothing that you're telling me is making any sense
It's a life I can't live
(Come confidence, please give me strength)
I think I've run out of time
Are you here?
Are you breathing?
Tell me everything that makes you hurt
Everything you hate
At times I feel like no one believes me
I feel so empty
I stared for a moment
Took count of my breaths
I measured myself in worth
Such a cheap attempt to feel whole
Always wasting my day
Feeling weak
Lost in sleep
I awake to nothing
No thoughts or feelings
Come back, my faith
So tell me, what more will you take from me?
Every passion that I own
Every thought that I have shown
You have put me down
Pulled me out of my skin
Neglected a cry
You will pay for this
It's been some time since I've tried
To seek help for this aching
Every feeling was pushed aside
To make sense of me leaving
Will it hurt when I die?
(Forgive me for this)