For Everest Shoes
This is a quiet attempt at leaving while you sleep
I'm easy and unnoticed, you won't miss a thing
Just so you know, i'll never grow any older with you
(unless I have to)
We outgrew our clothes, taller and fatter
We're just piles of dust, none of it really matters
My mouth worries, and it will worry you
My tongue is hurried, tying knots it can't undo
I will eat my words, but i will slur them first
Sometimes being held feels just like being hurt
I'm not afraid of anything but dying and being left behind
But i'm ashamed, i wish we had more time
We used to compare scars under the blankets
Now we hide on separate sides of the bed
The bodies we had were too small for what we felt
Now they're hollowed out, we've got nothing left
My mouth worries, and it will worry you
My tongue is hurried, tying knots it can't undo
I will eat my words, but I will slur them first
Sometimes being held feels just like being hurt
I hold you down, i let you sink
Like a body in the lake
When I let go, you will float
Like vowels stuck inside your throat
You bite your tongue to swallow blood
It tastes like love, but it is not
