Toluca Lake Balboa
I don't know if I believe what you wrote
Half-hearted farewells and failed attempts to cope
I don't know if I've been sober, I've spent time alone
Drunk enough to say that this is when I've felt a ghost
I never meant to cut your throat
I only meant to cut the rope
Tried to get what I thought I desired
Spending years apart until we both got tired
Of waiting, of hating, but you were not the right mistake to make
And I am just a life to take
I've been running faster lately from things I can't escape
I can't stop myself from wishing I threw my promises away
A few weak words with perfect chemistry that never seemed to break
Only bond your expectations of me and all my past mistakes
Just the wrong way to try
I did my best to realize
And maybe I've been blind
But at least you know I tried looking up at the light
I never meant to cut your throat
I only meant to cut the rope
I've been running faster lately from things I can't escape
I can't stop myself from wishing I threw my promises away
A few weak words with perfect chemistry that never seemed to break
Only bond your expectations of me and all my past mistakes
All my past mistakes
Everything you hate
All my past mistakes
Everything we faked
