Source Act In Transit (Interlude)
[Spoken Word: NYX]
I'm suffocating from the ghosts around me
Darkness enters my lung and fills me, and
As I exhale I feel more empty than before
Theres nowhere I can call home
I'm not safe anywhere I go
I just try to live my life devoid of
Senselessness
It plagues everyone, not just me
But I was cursed with a god forsaken
Sensory overload when I feel I lost or
Hopeless. I see black and feel
Like I've sunken to the bottom of an ocean
The motion of water coursing over me
Leaves me helpless as no one notices
I'm a ghost, and like wise I suffocate
Those around me. I feed off their happiness
And only sometimes do I thank them
Other times its too late
Is it better to have love or loss? I never got to choose
I'll never know what I've lost or what I have to lose
My phone lights up with a text from an old friend
I pretend I didn't see it, she doesn't need me anyways
Or at least she didn't that night
And I choose to believe nothings changed rather than
I've made a mistake
At least thats what I've learned watching parents and teachers
I grew up in the city of light, but I'm not afraid of the darkness
Because the darkest night is inside of us where no light can
Penetrate when we choose not to let it
So whether we survive is all a state of mind we all get to choose
And I've chosen. It's your turn, make a move