Richy Nix Stay Alive
When you're standing at the edge of a cliff,
and you got somebody that you love standing
behind you telling you to jump,
and you finally do it,
that person is just as much in the wrong
as you are.
But I survived.
It's the calm before the storm.
I know where you are,
everytime I close my eyes.
I'm leaving you for now,
but I know where you are.
I'm starting a brand new life.
I don't know why,
but I swallowed it still.
This whole bottle of pills.
Oh what a Hollywood thrill.
And yeah it got me so ill,
just when I thought it would kill.
I made it out alive and climbed this impossible hill.
I was, tied up to this hospital bed,
when I just wanted to be dead.
I don't care about what you said,
with hickies all on your neck.
Who the hell taught you about respect?
Can't you tell i'm running out of breath.
With a million dead on my desk.
You can burn in hell with the rest.
But I don't wish that upon you.
I never wanted to harm you.
I wanna hate you but you know that it's hard to.
Like a fool I fell in love,
from the moment I saw you.
But you always kill me you bitch.
I f..cking hope that it haunts you.
Calling superman a bitch,
is my only kryptonite.
Yeah i'll tell you man some bitche's throat,
is gettin' slit tonight.
I'm too f..cking sick to die.
Get it right.
This is fly.
This is why,
I will fight to stay alive.
It's the calm before the storm.
I know where you are,
everytime I close my eyes.
I'm leaving you for now,
but I know where you are.
I'm starting a brand new life.
I just drink my problems away.
When I wake up they all remain.
Then it hits me hard in the face.
It's gettin' harder every day.
So I walk along with barely any motivation.
There's something wrong with this
god-forsaken road that i'm takin'.
Sometimes, I just wanna buy me a hand pistol.
Runnin' out, shooting up randoms
like a damn schizo.
But instead, i'm sitting here with a pad and a pencil.
I'm ripping out my own hair,
grabbing it up by the fistful.
Yeah, you f..cking pussies think that you can scare me now.
Scare me how?
Try to kill me?
I can't even kill myself.
Yeah you better believe me because,
I already tried.
Already died.
Came back to life a motherfucking Jesus Christ.
Got a heart of steel and i'm hard to kill.
Ain't gonna stop till I got a deal.
When I get that i'ma want a mill.
I won't disappear like Copperfield.
So, you see me climbing going straight to the top.
I'm lightin' up the sky and I ain't gonna stop.
It's the calm before the storm.
I know where you are,
everytime I close my eyes.
I'm leaving you for now,
but I know where you are.
I'm starting a brand new life.
So I know what I want.
I want it all.
We've made our mistakes.
We needed to change.
We needed to break,
and even though,
it takes a part of me.
It takes a part of me.
But I won't,
ever,
do this again to,
anyone I love.
Anyone I love.
I won't,
ever,
do this again to,
anyone I love.
Anyone I love.
I'm sorry for what i've done.
But I want it all.
It's the calm before the storm.