Marcus Ariah Big Man, Little Man
[Verse 1]
I watched you come out the stomach right out the girl of my life
I haven't seen her so happy
Still haven't held me that tight
It felt so beautiful holdin you
Who would think that we'd fight
You was my youngin
I'm watching you grow to do something right
I never had this much questions
I questioned if I was ready
It brought some tears out my eyes
Seein me come out her belly
The nurse told us you special
But shit I knew that already
The way ya mother would hold you
I think I probably was jealous
She would look at you and smile
Always takin up for you
I was workin she workin and we just wake up for you
I love ya mother so much and you just takin her time
And that shit breakin my heart
But you my son so it's fine
But now you gettin much older
Who knew you'd grow up so fast
I guess ya mother was right
You bein young wouldn't last
You start to remember shit
Sorry if I was hard on you
That's how ya pops was brought up
Thought this was bein a man
When we fought I said go outside
Should've never did that
I could've handle that better
Wish I could take it all back
I see you grew a resentment
Now our relationship lacked
I guess I wasn't happy with life
My mind just crashed
I started f..ckin with bullshit
Same shit that I sold
I ain't think I would fold
Marcus I'm feeling so old
How could ya mother be cold and leave me out here to die
I mean I can't blame that on her
I'm the real reason why
I disappeared from my babies
I swear it hurt me so much
I just don't know what to say
It's gettin so deep in this cut
Tell miyah she still my princess
Man I'll just tell her myself
I swear to God when I get money Ima give you this wealth
And Ima work on me still doin what I said that I was
Leave the hood alone
Stay away from them drugs
I really wanna speak to y'all
Don't know if it's guilt or pride
I know I'm killin y'all vibe
I know I'm spilling these lines
I swear to God I'm not high
I swear to God Ima try
I swear to God I won't die
Before I'm back in ya lives
Now I'm prayin to God
That you and him could forgive me
Here marcus give mom this hunnid
And give Amiyah this 50
That's the only way that I know
But please tell me I love em
Ya moms got a new man?
If he respect her it's butter
I swear I just want the best
Marcus you good to me
I can't believe this shit went left
It ain't no room for me
[Verse 2]
It's kinda crazy cause lately you been emotional pop
I never seen you this way it seem like ya focus been dropped
Don't even hit me I called you so many times I just stopped
Guess you the reason the only man I put trust in is God
But it's all good my nigga, it's so much power in forgiveness
I live my life by forgiveness
That's probably why I stay driven
You still my father my nigga
When I get on then you with us
Guess I believe in respecting the parents
And I ain't religious
But I just feel like you abandoned me
You know I got pride
I come from you so I won't sayin nothing bout times when I cry
My girl tell me hit you up more
When I do I get nothin
My sister don't even bother
Now me I'd rather not try
My mother ask me all the time
Marc you spoke to ya father
I just look at her and laugh
Then get back to my dollars
But it's iight cause when I get it swear we all gon prosper
Man I just wanna see you proud want you to see me do proper
So I ain't even gon be mad and throw ya name in the dirt
My big Bruva pops died and when he told me it hurt
So I appreciate you bein here some niggas less fortunate
Ima let you do ya thing, so I get back to this work
And I'm not angry cause I understand the shit you go through
You lost ya family ya job and now you back in the zoo
And everybody talkin shit
Nobody pray or believe you
But just know that no matter what
You got my hand when it's needed
I'm facin issues too pop
I ain't tryna cop out
I ain't tryna opt out
Shit people tryna help out
Guess cause they see that I'm hungry
It's funny that you don't see it
But Ima get to this money
And hopefully I could keep it
I just wanted to hit you up and tell you shit going right
I swear this shit gon be nice
I swear this shit takin flight
I think about all them nights
When we would walk and we chop it
I don't want us to be like grandpa
Get cool and God knock ya