Carus Matris Lyrics

Lights In Reverse Carus Matris

These walls have no windows
The doors are sealed so tight
It tends to shut me up
Now I'm wonderless and I have no thoughts

Guiding lights and beacons, they shine through the night
And the night is when I feel alive
Cus I let my mind stay out of sight
I've always felt so well-read
Till someone came along and read me, like I'll never read myself

And even if I end it all tonight
I'll wake up in the morning and feel just fine
So when we lose ourselves in death
You shut him out and I let him in
If I die before my time, let these words be the only phrases I leave behind

If we all have our own edge, why must I stand so close to mine?
All the others have teeth and claws to fight
Where I'm trapped inside this coalmine

These walls have no windows
The doors are sealed so tight

And even if I end it all tonight
I'll wake up in the morning and feel just fine
So when we lose ourselves in death
You shut him out and I let him in
If I die before my time, let these words be the only phrases I leave behind

Dear mother, I wish that I..
I wish I had a death wish that's purely mine.