Koji Waking Up
Waking up today, I had the sense that it was time for change, but feeling demoralized the perception was hushed and I’m quiet now. Waking up today, I could barely feel my face. Not jumping up out of bed, but falling instead because my body’s numb. Look into a mirror. Do you recognize yourself? You’ll find sometimes you don’t. Your friends ask if you’re okay. You’re turning blue as they wait for answer, but you won’t. Oh no, you won’t. I feel my insides showing out. I want medicine but no amount can take me away, take me away from this. I must confront this confusing mess. Mother said, “son always do your best child, child now.” I wish I listened to you then. Look into a mirror. I do not recognize myself. I’ve found sometimes I don’t. My friends ask if I’m okay. I’m turning blue as they wait for an answer, but I won’t. I should have listened to you then.
