Infested Waiting Game
I spent my whole life waiting, for the day I would drop
dead,
Convinced that I was dying, deep down and buried in my
head.
The doctors just ignored all the issues I addressed,
They sent me on my way and ignored everything I'd said.
Suddenly the pain, is far too much to bare,
I give it one last shot, with the docs who didn't care.
Next thing I know I'm under, losing part of me,
Playing the waiting game to see if I've got the
disease.
You ignored me, you dismissed me,
You left me to rot and humiliated me.
I'm laying here sore and thinkin' of the worst,
Two weeks still to go, the results are gonna hurt.
Is it all for nothing, or has my life been spared?
I can't believe it’s real, now I'm pretty f..ckin'
scared.
My back's started to ache, has this mother f..cker
spread?
I feel so isolated, there's nowhere to go but bed.
I'm counting down the days, until the scan results are
in,
My life's changed just like that, what a mess I've
gotten in.
And just like that, I'm laying on my back,
My dignity remains in pieces.
I can't stand or walk, I'm pissin' in bottles,
I hope for this that death's been cheated.
And just like that, I'm laying in a bed,
Three drips of chemo running through my veins.
Nine weeks of hell, vomit, hair loss as well,
I've lost count of all the pills they gave me.
And just like that, my stitches are oozing crap,
I can't face to walk in case my sides split.
My face, swelled up, I don't look the same no more,
My skin is dry and I can't taste shit.
Headaches all night, the end don't seem in sight,
My veins are scabbed from all the needles.
My lungs feel tight, rapid breathing this can't be
right,
It's only day two of this battle.
