Howard Lawrence Tachycardia
Feel the haze closing in
A megawatt invasion
The buzz chills your fingers
Try to squeeze it off but it lingers
Doctors call for a round of tests
Probe my brain and scan my chest
When all I need is a potion
To set the wheels back in motion
This stranglehold is gonna choke me
My last attack nearly broke free
Sometimes I feel a slow burn inside
Like a four-alarm fire tracking up and down my spine
Weak defenses wringing my senses dry
Book myself a front row seat
For the summer concert season
But then a sense of doom takes hold
The back of my neck turns ice cold
It never stays away long enough
For me to know which end is up
Gimme a decent warning
I'll be crashin till three in the morning
My girl's convinced I’m lazy
This damn routine's makin me crazy
Here it comes and comes again…
Can't catch my breath
Fight or flight hangs in the balance
This fear of imminent death
You can blame yourself forever
And blow your shell-shocked brains out
But they won't forgive and won't forget
How you caved and took the bailout
Even now when the worst is over
The pitter patter fills my chest
Not a heart condition but a signpost
The symptoms lie like a talk show host
Test results don't get disclosed
To ease the pressure before it blows
Just a message on my smartphone
Emergency numbers—still unknown
My self-esteem floats away in the water
As reason and rhyme get slaughtered
Sometimes I feel a slow burn inside
Like a four-alarm fire tracking up and down my spine
Pointless dread get outta my head
Goodbye!
