Gavin Castleton Privacy
You don't want to sneak into her phone when she's in the bathroom
And you don't wanna see those texts sent to that ex-boyfriend (oh the fucking irony)
You're gonna throw up in your mouth if you gotta act like nothing happened
Now stand up, you're gonna lose your shit if you sit in this moment
You know why?
Cuz that's just pride in your throat
Yeah that's not love in your gut
That's just your ego
You should've left this alone
You feel played ‘cause a minute ago she had her tongue in your ear
But she's been making plans with him to have “the best *** in ten years”
You get split by the dissonance: she just said she loves you but she told him the same
And now you gotta learn to hold both of these truths in your runaway brain
That's just pride in your throat
No, that's not love in your gut
That's just your ego
You've gotta let this one go
Yeah, the broken heart is a sponge
It doesn't know what it wants
It just needs an ego
It just wants to feel hope
The cut is deep because it contradicts the story that you told yourself:
Here you thought she left you in a leap of faith, not the safe and native arms of someone else
And you'll never know how long that this shit was going on, maybe you were just an in-between
These are just some of the blessings that come from disrespecting lover's privacy
You start to feel as if she's not grieving with you—she's just consoling you
And despite her best intention, she only makes you feel less connected
But don't close up; don't distrust; don't try to force it or control it
Gotta sit with the ugly; sit with not knowing; sit with the rejection
Anger helps you leave but it's not real growth
It's just pride making you choke
Yeah, that's not love twisting in your gut
That's just your ego, ego
You've got to let this one go
Love is not a racing pulse
Yeah that's just shame or lust
That's just your ego
Love is when you let this girl go
The broken heart is a sponge
It doesn't know what it wants
It just needs an ego
It just wants to feel whole again