Gavin Castleton Foundation
I don't recognize myself today
I'm short of breath and snotty faced
Crying in my car alone
Stressed out when you're on your phone
In our bedroom
And we've been struggling for a while
But holding steady for the child
Drowning dread with food and drink
And sex when we don't wanna think about it
Now it's untenable
There's talk of moving out
It's not quite clear
How we got here
Maybe it did us in
I know it put you out
But working on this house has taught me
If your walls aren't plum
And your ridge beam sags
And your foundation sinks on both sides
You'll do twice the work
Tryin to compensate
And it may never look quite right
I'm sorry for the way that we started
I took advantage of your broken heart
And fandom, so young and so handsome a flower
I was older but still so unworthy of my power over you
Years later when we reunited
It seemed a fresh new start for us
But I was blind to the shaky ground you felt
Much too blind to see the damage I'd dealt
To that trusting
To that wandering
To that beautiful
You
Now I'm learning
I can't just hit “reset”
On someone I oppressed
I can't ignore every ghost
Some things you don't forgive
Some things you can't forget
Sometimes you have to ask the question
If your soil is sour
And your level's broke
So your foundation sinks in the ground
Can you learn to live on the tilted earth
Or is it time to tear it all down?
