Gavin Castleton Courage
You came home from the neighbor's house
Tongue too thick to fit in your mouth
Slurring your speech, blurring your story
Drunk on a Thursday evening
And I didn't wanna call you out
I didn't wanna cancel
The long night of candles and plowing we'd planned for
It's cowardly how I can't stand up and tell you
I'm worried about you
And when I find bottles in your sock drawer
Or underneath the bathroom sink
Is that just how you avoid my tyranny?
Or a place for things you never wanna see?
And when we go out with friends and you end up
Angry, confused, and puking
Is that just a normal night's trajectory to you
Or are you trying to douse some burning truth?
When are you gonna fix it?
When are you gonna do the work you know you need?
Are you building up the courage to face it
Or just building the courage the leave?
Please don't make me any more promises, baby
Please don't tell me how you're gonna change
Please don't curl up in a ball of pity
And put me in the role of soother—
It's a dirty trick to play on someone who can't stand feeling useless
Don't you know I'm on your team, baby?
Don't you know I wanna see you happy?
And don't you think it's time to get some help, maybe?
Don't you ever wanna be yourself again?
Why is my experience dismissible?
Haven't I been such a present listener?
Don't you think it's gonna get to Bloomy and
Don't you think she needs to see you happy again?
So when are you gonna fix it?
When are you gonna do the work you know you need to do?
Are you building up the courage to face it
Or just building the courage to leave?
When are you gonna fix it?
When are you gonna do the work you know you need to do?
Are you building up the courage to face it
Or just building the courage to leave?