Thoushaltnot Crawling Deeper
I'm crawling deeper in this hole
Where it's too cramped to move like you do
And where the echoes blend my words into a language of
their own
And I think the corners I am turning
Dull my lantern to the outside
And the less that you remember me
The more this path is overgrown
And the way back is just a lucky break
That connects me to the dressing up of melody
The bite of infidelity
And I'd long to swallow one more old song
Pretending that I have a chance to make you care
About this failing solitaire
Where I'm in here and you're out there
Because I'm crawling deeper in
Into my own skin
Where there's no one to chase away
Or to guess the next thing that I say
I'm invisible to you
To your bird's eye view
I know the angle all too well
It's how I saw before I fell
But now it's not so hard to tell
I'm crawling deeper in myself
And these corridors are veined
With every word we've ever spoken
And the story that they tell
Is just a wheel within a wheel
And every time I think I'm crossing into where you
cannot find me
You are always right behind me, half inside me half
unreal
I forget all the skies and crocus petals
A time without retreating like a refugee
From such imagined treachery
Now silent, I'm searching out this island
Pretending that I have a chance to make it where
The morning's not recycled air
And you're more than a prayer
Because I'm crawling deeper in
Into my own skin
Where there's no one to chase away
Or to guess the next thing that I say
I'm invisible to you
To your bird's eye view
I know the angle all too well
It's how I saw before I fell
But now it's not so hard to tell
I'm crawling deeper in myself
