Stephen Fearing Turn Out The Lights
Ten long years I’ve lived within this town
Ten years since I put my suitcase down
Ten years since I stopped my endless roaming
And roots began to grow beneath my heels
Now my shadow’s finally come around
It blew in from the northeast on a boiling thundercloud
It took me ten long years to recognize the face that holds me down
And suffocates my body in my darkest hour
Chorus
Just a baby, and my father knew it well
My Father always taught me that good kids never tell
And no one dared to ask me why I lay awake at night
My arms so still beside me as he turned out the lights
Turn out the lights
I have kept this secret far too long
Buried with my childhood as the years have come and gone
And though I’ve stopped my running now so far away from home
It’s only coming clear to me what I was running from
And I still cannot believe it to this day
For I have kept this secret and denied my youth away
And my family is too frightened now to look into my eyes
There’s a child behind the adult they would surely recognize
Chorus
They tell you time will wash away the tears
They say time will tied you over ‘til the horror disappears
But time has tricked me deeply and caused me to believe
That out of sight is out of mind
And out of mind is healed
Now I will forgive myself for shame
Forgive myself for being small and helpless in my pain
For forgiveness is the only road to lead the spirit home
And I will be a child forever more
Yes and we will be children forever more
