Ryan Caraveo Get To Choose
[Verse 1]
Since I was prepubescent, my life was bleak and hectic
Indeed neglected, I never learned how to be connected
Sometimes I wish I became a crooked police detective
So I could reach into my brain and just delete the records
Treated less than by my dad, at least he feed and dressed him
My measly essencе spent every week just clеaning messes
"Hey dad maybe later we could", "shut up eat your breakfast"
He said he loved me once, guess there's no need to readdress it
Egregious lessons taught me that I'm a nuisance
Don't know where I'd be if music never had an influence
Hearing songs that were rooted in the lack of inclusion
Cuz back as a student that's what I stewed in
I guess that was the blueprint to make me this way
And put all of this hate on display
Instead of wasting away, cradle to grave
Or found in my bathtub, filleted with a blade
I just pray that fortune really do favor the brave
[Chorus]
But I like me now
This is new
Wish I would stick around
But I don't get to choose
I like me now
This is new
Wish I would stick around
But I don't get to, get to
Choose
Choose
Choose
Choose
[Verse 2]
When I see that audience I'm not even cognizant
I think 'bout what I fought against and it raises my body temp
Like my flawed attempt to toggle my father's thoughtfulness
Impossible like toddlers tryna topple an obelisk
And obviously, all these atrocities just accumulate
Said I was shit and now I'm just tryna prove I ain't
So we got a problem if you don't think that I'm truly great
I want all the static like ghosts tryna communicate
They sleepin' on me like they bedridden
These the best writtens
Y'all needed a spark I'm the electrician
I'm seeing red like I'm set trippin'
If you can't take the heat, stay up out the chef's kitchen
My neck's itching, my foot's tapping
Cuz they just look past us
And acting okay with that shit really took practice
I wanna tap ya shoulder just so that ya look backwards
And hit that pretty jaw with a hook, leave a good fracture
I wonder would natural causes be better
Then calling a reunion just so I can share all these letters
Just to set this shit on fire so we all die together
Cuz every time I close my eyes it is all I remember
[Chorus]
But I like me now
This is new
Wish I would stick around
But I don't get to choose
I like me now
This is new
Wish I would stick around
But I don't get to, get to
Choose
Choose
Choose
Choose
Choose
Choose
Choose
Choose
