Regzzo Conception
[Verse 1: Regzzo]
I feel like I'm a born sinner
Everyday I'm wakin' up and livin' life like it's a f..ckin' dinner
And I don't even eat it I just sit and ponder
Like a philosopher I seek the knowledge I've not learned
I swear I'm on my f..ckin' grind
And now I'm starting to believe all of my f..ckin' lies
I'm makin' money off of shit that I got pressured to try
And now the jokes on you, cause I cut all of our ties
You find it hard to believe that I've built a fanbase
All from nothing but my blood, sweat and tears runnin' down my face
But I did it all for you, and now I'm doing it for me while saying f..ck you too
You feel my passion through these lyrics, feel the tension through my voice
Work so hard I swear to god I might never feel joy
But I do this for the fans, for the people who believe in me
You never know your destiny until you reach the ending
And so I write this verse in memory of everything I cherish deeply, holding back the tears, no weeping
I get messages anonymous from people holding promises that they'll become somebody all because my verse inspired it
And f..ck it I'll never be what I want to be so I'll just keep on doin' me, the stress lives for eternity, but maybe if I don't trip
Over the little things and start to see the world for what it's really meant to be
Like it or not, it's who I am
Don't define me by my wisdom, just define me by my plan
I'm just trynna chase my dream and I swear people wanna see me fail
Maybe if I make it everyone will walk my trail
And I don't even know if Imma see my dad again but I just couldn't move back in, I had to leave before I made things worse than they've already been
With all the alcohol and drugs and constant searching for who I am
It's been a long journey
But it's only beginning and honestly the thought of failing scares me but I keep on heading to the top
Cause even if I fail I'll still remember what it took to bring me down, still depressed but never frown, I
Slowly start to reminisce
About the times when I was bullied and I couldn't take it
The only person I could talk to about all of my problems was my grandma now she's gone and it still f..cks with me, I notice that she's looking down on top of me
I see her everywhere from street signs, to sweet dreams, from these lines, to blue seas, to everything that makes me happy
She f..ckin' raised me now I'm supposed to just be calm and happy?
But on the brighter side I guess that shit was mean to be
Cause she's the reason that I'm writing all this poetry
And to this day I never thought it'd be a part of me
You never know your destiny until you reach the ending