Mikelwj Problems
[Verse One: MikelWJ]
I'm not your f..cking counselor, I mean I care
But don't get pissed off if I can't always just be there
I have my own life, my own problems, my own addictions
And when I'm not writing these songs, I deal with friction
I always try to listen, but sometimes I've had enough
And if you won't return the favor, well I guess thats rough
Because nowadays people expect me to be a role model
But I'm a teenager, is it that hard to follow?
I still don't even have a f..cking college degree
And yet all of these little kids throw their problems at me
And their parents point fingers since the kids depressed
Because they sent a letter out a week ago to my address
And since I didn't reply, they seem to think I'm a fake
When I put all of my time into the music that I make
And if that isn't enough, no one will pick up the phone
I've been crying out for help but I still sit here all alone
Like…
[Chorus: MikelWJ]
These monsters in my head (In my head)
Are the same ones that leave my brethren dead
These monsters in my head. (In my head)
Are the same ones that leave my brethren dead
[Verse Two: MikelWJ]
The stress hits, and it's always a f..cking bitch
I'll be feeling great when I suddenly make a switch
My mood goes south and my mind starts rushing
You can tell I'm pissed by the times that I'm cussing
My counselor says that I need to block all of the pain
But he never understands that's the reason that I came
I've hit rock bottom, I'm about to fall through
Raps role model, you're lucky it isn't you
I talk about whats real and get criticized for depression
They hand me all their pills and another therapy session
Suicide watch leaves these people giving strange stares
I'm not a f..cking monster, what are you're eyes doing here
I feel emotions that no one in this room can explain
So how in God's name do I talk about all the pain?
And if that isn't enough, no one will pick up the phone
I've been crying out for help but I still sit here all alone
Like…
[Chorus: MikelWJ]
[Verse Three: MikelWJ]
My best friend wants to kill herself, that's all I have to say
I see her mental state degrading each and every single day
There's not a word that I can say to ever make her understand
I made a promise to myself that I won't watch her life end
I kissed her wrists and told that I'll always hold her close
But then I turn around and swallow a bottle to overdose
Feeling so comatose, it's the only way I'll get by
And ignore all the thoughts that are screaming at me to die
I disappoint my parents since I have no other real skills
And musics not a definite way that I'll pay my bills
But it's all that I can do since I never did well in school
So I'll continue disappointing until they tell me we're cool
Like…
[Chorus: MikelWJ]
