Kevin Moore Blanket
Memory save me I'm f..ckin up. Constantly laid on the
ground. Looking for
signs on the ceiling
"...I just have to keep breathing..."
(she wants me to know she wants me around). Think I was
moving to something.
Thought I was sailing along. Had to be sailing for
someplace (thought I was
right, but I must have been wrong). You do make a
beautiful blinder, you
hide things I don't want to see. Your arms cover me
like a blanket and
maybe it's all that I need.
"...I just have to keep breathing, I just have to keep
breathing that's all
it is, that's all it is that's keeping us going, that's
all it is, is just me
breathing, is just me breathing I inhale, and I exhale,
and then, and then,
then, then, I keep it going for nothing but, but you
know,
I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't
mind doing it for
people, I just have to keep breathing, I just have to
keep breathing..."
[Male vocal sample: performance artist Todd Alcott. ]
[The monologue from which this comes from is called
"Lenore," ]
Memory save me I'm trippin up. Picking up bones from
the ground. Throw me a
chain and I'll climb it up (thought I was up, but I
guess I was down). You
look like a dream I was dreaming, a dream of a boy by
the sea. You must have
eyes just like mirrors, 'cause I thought I was looking
at me. Close your
eyes, think of the Best Thing To Say. iampathetically
lost and maybe you
made me this way. Memory save me I'm f..ckin up. The
sun's just a spot on
the sea. I know I was reaching for something (thought
it was you, but I
guess it was me). And the world is a wonderful target,
she was a wonderful
world, but God is a girl who won't listen. She was an
insolent girl. Close
your eyes and see what you're doing to me? She catches
my eye with a cynical
smile and says, "I Cannot Solve All I See". I had a
dream (dreams would fill
my head, but I let 'em all slide, american-style, for
the blanket that lays
on my
bediwaitalldayformysailorandsometimeshecomeswereyousurp
risedthathediedtryingto
lookforotherpeoplenohewashewasthetypeofpersonwhowouldde
finitelygolookingforthe
people)
"...I wait all day for my sailor and sometimes he
comes..."
"...were you surprised that he died trying to look for
other people?...
...no, he was the type of person, he was, he was... he
was the type of person
who would definitely go looking for the people..."
[Female vocal sample: Tori Amos' "Song For Eric,"
overlayed with... ]
[Male and female vocal samples: anonymous
reporter/interviewee from ]
[a tv news broadcast. ]
I wanted to find An Innocent Mind, but only found
myself waiting. I laid on
the floor, You walked through the door and now I feel
myself fading. I
wanted to find An Innocent Mind, but only found myself
waiting. I laid on
the floor, You walked through the door and now I feel
myself fading. Now I
feel myself fading. I jumped on a meaningful wave that
carried me right to
the shoreline. I laughed when my face hit the sand and
swam out again for
the joyride. I told you the things that I want and you
gave me just what I
needed. It's just like my father would want, but I
couldn't smile when he
did. I boarded the windows and doors and took the clock
down from the
ceiling. But I kept my head to the floor, 'cause I had
a confident feeling.
Somebody called me today, I answered the door kind of
hazy. He told me to
leave all my clothes, he told me to tell you you're
crazy. I followed him
out to the street, he pointed and quickly departed. And
left me to travel
for weeks, till I get to the place where I started. And
I just want to be
where I started, I just want to get back where I
started, and I just want to
be where I started, and I just want to get back where I
started.
"...the other version of that's called, 'I buried me
wife and I dance on top
of her.'
What a cruel thing to do, go dance on top of her, you
know that was a, that
wasn't a nice thing to do.
Well, but she didn't know the difference anyway..."
[Male vocal samples: source unknown.]