Jay Brannan Unstable Boy
staring down the barrel of another holiday
force-fed a christmas carol of another time, another
place, another way
what child is this who, who laid to rest
on mary’s lap is sleeping
well, what child is this who, who feels so blessed
yet cannot keep from weeping
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i should be tending to the horses who intend to cart my
joy
from now into forever, i’m just a lowly unstable boy
i’m a failure on a journey, but my strength is
gathering
and it’s only fair that i make it there, yeah, i’m on
my way to mattering
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but all the way, on the way, i couldn’t contain my fear
my lips only look rosy cuz my skin looks so white in
here
shred up my fingers on this bottle cap that won’t twist
off
aching for the syrup that could cure me of this hacking
cough
ask me how i’m feeling and i’ll say i’m okay
though my mind is reeling, can’t think of anything
better to say
is that what you get for running a yellow light—
piss full of regret and a fix that doesn’t last
i'm a super-cali-fragile piece of f..cked up à la i need
a spoonful of something fast
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stupid f..cking world of mine
you keep moving the f..cking finish line
you trick me over here, you hide it over there
you start another game when you see me starting to
care, well
i don’t expect you to hear me say
i’m gonna chew my way out of your lab rat cage someday
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