Dead Crown Down (feat. DaBoiJ)
[Chorus: Kendall Johns]
On and on
My mind's a clock that just never stops
Been down for six weeks
Count the hours of sleep I never got
Ask me one time I'll say ("I'm doing fine")
Ask me two times I'll say ("I'm doing fine")
Third time you know's a f..ckin' lie
Hurt myself just to come alive
[Verse 1: Kendall Johns]
Everyday I awake, take a drink, numb the pain
Drop a note, make it rain, but you know shit be fake
Buy a gun, hold it tight, keep it on my bedside
Pull the trigger, say goodnight, yo, what the f..ck is this?
I ain't sick motherfucker, but I can't get outta bed
You ever feel that barrel get close too your head?
Forget what I said, forget what I meant
Forget bein' alive, I'd rather be dead, what?
[Verse 2: Kendall Johns]
(Always down, always down)
Always down and can't seem to look up
I'm all I have to blame
(I'm all I have to blame)
Everyday I feel something different
But it all just stays the same
I'll say I'm doing fine
But I'll never be okay
What, what?
(On and on, my mind's...)
[Chorus: Kendall Johns]
On and on
My mind's a clock that just never stops
Been down for six weeks
Count the hours of sleep I never got
Ask me one time I'll say ("I'm doing fine")
Ask me two times I'll say ("I'm doing fine")
Third time you know's a f..ckin' lie
Hurt myself just to come alive
[Verse 3: DaBoiJ]
Man, I been down like underground
No Tony Hawk sittin' in the park while it's dark, nigga f..cked up
F..ck fame, money, and bitches, I'm f..cked up
The definition of failure, nigga, tough luck
Jaded and all I want is my enemies apart
Blank face, blunt mouthed wit' a empty heart
Feel like I'm stuck in the sea and all I see is the sharks
Can't run away from the pain when all you see is the dark
Stuck in the game, mind gone insane
From the thangs that I got but it's anger and pain
All that I'll gain when I get to the top
Feelin' the highs to get from the lows
I'll never escape that's just how it goes
Takin' a dose to warm when you froze
Numb from the pain, I feel like a ghost
Focus so I'll never fold, but paranoia's got a hold
Haters keep me on my toes, this f..ckin' game is gettin' old
Depression's tryna burn me, gotta get up off the stove
Ain't tryna be another f..ckin' dead failure story told
[Verse 4: Kendall Johns]
(Always down, always down)
Always down and can't seem to look up
I'm all I have to blame
(I'm all I have to blame)
Everyday I feel something different
But it all just stays the same, yeah