Civilian Judas
When I heard, it occurred to me like a break in the ice
That this wouldn't work
That's the day I learned to run for my life
Guarding the door was every single love that's ever lost
I wept in their arms
They said, "Man, we've been there before."
And then I think
That life's been as good as it's been a bastard
I'm not damaged, just discouraged
A little tired, that's all
Darkness has a way of robbing me
But love is love is love
And that changes things
I've been an addict for most of my life
To both naked women and fighting the good fight
I've been impaired for far too many nights
To look in the mirror and hope for a wife
If I keep on it won't get easier
But it's the only choice I've got
I am not damaged, just discouraged
I'm human, and that's all
Darkness has a way of robbing me
But love is love is love
And that changes things
When who I've become is tearing me up I'm reminded
Affection exceeds the depth of my grief
I'm reminded that
No one ever thinks themselves a Judas
Rope in hand walking toward the tree
Should you ever find you're out of options
Brother, you can hang around with me