Che Noir Communion
[Intro]
The lord of glory
Let the church say amen
Anybody else wanna come up here and give they testimony
During this communion day?
Anybody wanna share they story?
Sister Black, wanna come on up here and talk to us?
Come on up here, sister Black, come on
Talk to these people
[Verse 1]
Look, I tend to hide when I grieve
Losin' my brother hurt so much that I cry in my sleep
I'm wakin' up outta my dreams every night in a scream
Tryna find reasons, sheddin' tears look like my eyes bleedin'
Mind-readin' can't even process the thoughts I think
I have my best conversations when it's just God and me
Was confused, shit, feel like I'm drunk without a drink
Got that call, made me sick to my stomach, it's hard to eat
It'll shatter you, my heart's pure, it never matter who
Never show loyalty to me, I'm givin' gratitude
Tragic news, pain that left me in the saddest mood
Depressed and family assumin' it's just my attitude
I'm stressed bad, feelin' guilty after my best laugh
For years I been dealin' with trauma, I took a step back
From friends dyin' to prison visits and see my step dad
So ahead of my time, when I sleep, I wake from jetlag
Peace hidin' from me, best friends in the sky above me
Scared to open up to my man, and all he doin' is tryna love me
Used to spend the night with buddies
But scared to sleep 'cause her brother keep comin' in the room tryna touch me
It's gon' take more than a prayer just to fix that
'Cause even when my truth come to the light, it still be pitch black
I don't stress about bills, I know how to get cash
Shit, I'm stressin' 'bout losses I'll never get back, for real
[Interlude]
Alright now, sister Black, I hear that pain, girl
I like that
I'ma need you to watch that cursin', though
Know we are in the house of the Lord
I hear that pain, girl, talk about that
Day of the com— oh, oh, you got more to say? (Uh-huh)
[Verse 2]
Pain so deep, sometimes my way to heal is to ignore it
Happiness comes at a price and I still can not afford it
Get to a place in life where maintainin' is harder
Wasted days when the liquor started tastin' like water
Drunk nights by myself weighed on my shoulders that only dyin' could help
I became a bride to my wealth
Tossed dimes in a well, cry out for help, my eyes on a sale
Risin' from Hell, but I could never lie to myself
Was a shy girl, quiet as hell, dealt with anxiety
They put me in them special ed classes and tried deprivin' me
Mental health not addressed in our society
Never was a highlight, my thoughts like, "Why try?"
Thirteen years since Nancy was killed, crazy how time flies
My childhood friend, I still get tears from my eyes
A month after I moved to the Falls, wasn't in my right mind
Get a phone call, said she got killed in a drive-by
She was fourteen, I'm thinkin', "How could y'all do this?"
She was a good kid, woulda been a honor roll student
Scary to share these things, they embarrass me as a fiend
Not ashamed to say I go to therapy every week
Got a man I love, we both been through it, it's hard to see romance
I'm tryna love a man that was never taught how to be a man
The pain I heard and shit I seen'll leave you deaf and blind
Press recline, gotta keep my head up high for my niggas
[Outro]
What did I say about that cursin'?
Gim— Gimme that damn mic
Got me cursin' in the house of the Lord
Give it up for sister Black, y'all
Amen, good Lord of glory, amen
Amen
God got you through it, girl, he gon' keep gettin' you through it
You'll keep gettin' through it, I just—
I just need you to work on that cursin' for me
Work— Work on them curse words
Amen, hallelujah