Busman's Holiday Hoped To
[Verse 1: Lew]
I turn on the computer screen
I wish my life could restart
Now that I'm married now
I pay off bills and credit cards
I miss my lonely life
Much better than the one I know
But I'll never leave my wife
Can't take the pain that she would know
[Verse 2: Lew]
I watch the seasons change
Through a window in the hall
And I've stood there many times
And wondered how hard I would fall
Into the street below
Where all the grey stays the same
Much like my life is now
I've been built to never change
[Chorus: Lew and Addie, Harmony]
And I take comfort in the things I can't explain
'Cause the life I lead now is one I can call by name
Says it's different but I know it's the same
Seems your dreams never turn out
The way that you hoped to, that I hoped to
A conscious state's a constant waste of time
If all you know is a conscious mind
Now I have the desk with all this unwant
I never had planned for
Wish I could turn back and get what I lack
I now find less is more
[Verse 3: Lew]
I sit in a darkened room
I watch projections on a wall
But I draw my focus to
The story of a light beam's crawl
Into a pool of white
As dust and particles freely float
A ray of color sings
A melody of simple notes
I've been waking up at dawn
I find new meaning in an age
I identified with ones
Who skipped the words and still turned the page
And though I can't rewind
I lay my comfort on the youth
Though I lie restless now
Someone has found the love and truth
[Chorus: Lew and Addie, Harmony]
And I take comfort in the things I can't explain
'Cause the life I lead now is one I can call by name
Says it's different but I know it's the same
Seems your dreams never turn out
The way that you hoped to, that I hoped to
A conscious state's a constant waste of time
If all you know is a conscious mind