Atreyu Slow Burn
It begins with a dark glowing ember
something black burning its way out of me
Searing the flesh
Pain is the only thing I feel
scars all I see
Oh no the fire's burning my insides again
What can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Flames consuming reason leaving only ashes left
You will catch me regretting my decision
I can't keep telling myself, what I want to hear
(What I want to hear)
I can't just close my eyes
I know, that it's killing me
and it's poisoning, the best of me
What I see, I don't want to believe
So let me tell you more, tell you more
about the lies I lead
That is how I chose to douse the flames in gasoline
Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head
Wreckage from the past haunts me, shakes me to the bone
I know it's over but I can't go home tonight
But after this I feel as empty as the night before
Feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more
Masochistic nihilistic urging backward thought
My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it
I can't keep telling myself, what I want to hear
(What I want to hear)
I can't just close my eyes
I know, that it's killing me
and it's poisoning, the best of me
What I see, I don't want to believe
So let me tell you more, tell you more
about the lies I lead
Calling, calling out
The darkest reaches of my soul are riddled with self-doubt
Crawling, crawling out
My will to fight will more than suffice
when others would lay down
It's only as dark as you make it
I know, that it's killing me
and its poisoning, the best of me
What I see, I don't want to believe
So let me tell you more, tell you more
about the lies I lead
