Dean Friedman Song For My Mother Lyrics

In the hollow of your arms
Snuggled up safe and warm
You used to tell me tales of unicorns and kings
But how could I comprehend
All the things you told me then
Of your maddness and your struggling
My mind would swim in fantasies
Like a piece of driftwood on the sea
I had no touchstone for reality
You were my reality
Like a dark and unlit room
Or the far side of the moon
Your insanity spoke emptiness and fear
No matter how I tried
How I questioned and I pried
I just could not penetrate that thin veneer
And I know you tried to comfort me
To soothe and reassure me
But then your strength would always fail
And in it's place a silken veil
Like a dried and wrinkled prune
A deflated toy balloon
I came home and found you strewn across the floor
And as they lay you on your bed
I heard you say "If I am dead,
How come it just keeps on hurtin' more and more"
And you left me in the early spring
All they said was "Mommy's resting"
And how was I to know so young
It wasn't something I had done
So please try and understand
I will love you as I can
I do not blame you, you're not guilty
But still theres no way to describe
The relief I finally found
Upon learning it was you
And not me
That was crazy